sigh no more
serve god, love me, and mend.
Love it will not betray you
Dismay or enslave you, it will
set
you
free.
a wise musing from mumford and sons
and there will come a time, you’ll see, with no more tears.
and love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears.
get over your hill and see, what you find there.
with grace in your heart and flowers in your hair.
the chain – ingrid michaelson
The sky looks pissed
The wind talks back
The bones are shifting in my skin
And you my love are gone
My room seems wrong
The bed wont fit
I cannot seem to operate
and you my love are gone
So glide away on soapy heels
And promise not to promise anymore
And if you come around again
Then I will take, then I will take
The chain from off the door
I’ll never say that I’ll never love,
Oh, but I don’t say a lot of things,
And you my love are gone
So glide away on soapy heels
And promise not to promise anymore
And if you come around again
Then I will take,
Then I will take,
Then I will take the chain from off the door
congrats to mr. and mrs. mark stone!
“The grass is not greener on the other side of the fence. The grass is greener where you water it.”
favorite kind of day
sun
walk
chai
daily office
friend
church: pentecost, baptisms, picnic, love
walk
cooking yummy food
skype with lucas
evensong with housemates
wine and cheese
chili dinner
dessert with 23
laughing
care of souls
efficient packing
ali ba ba
l o v e
plan B
that was the title of the book i just read by anne lamott – one of her memoirs. here are some of my favorite bits…
“grace means you’re in a different universe from where you had been stuck, when you had absolutely no way to get there on your own”
“there’s a lovely Hasidic story of a rabbi who always told his people that if they studied the Torah, it would put Scripture on their hearts. One of them asked, ‘why on our hearts, and not in them?’ the rabbi answered, ‘only God can put Scripture inside. but reading sacred text can put it on your hearts, and then when your hearts break, the holy words will fall inside.’”
“he is an exact person, as we all are, even though I sense that there is only one of us, that we are mosaic chips of that One.”
“it’s good to do uncomfortable things. it’s weight training for life.”
“lately our pastor has been urging us to act more like Martin Luther King, Jr., which I feel gives an unfair advantage to the more decent and humane people.”
“why couldn’t Jesus command us to obsess about everything, to try to control and manipulate people, to try not to breathe at all, or to pay attention, stomp away to brood when people annoy us, and then eat a big bag of Hershey’s kisses in bed?”
“gratitude, not understanding, is the secret to joy and equanimity. i prayed for the willingness to have very mild spiritual well-being. I didn’t need to understand the hypostatic unity of the Trinity; i just needed to turn my life over to whoever came up with redwood trees.”
“i would recommend that you all take a long deep breath, and stop. just be where your butts are, and breathe. take some time.”
boston y nica
Currently, I feel like I am again living in Nicaragua. But I’m still in Boston.
1. It is 90 degrees and humid.
2. The water is non-potable.
3. Everywhere I run or walk there is bad Spanish rap blaring (but I kind of like it, in a sentimental way).
4. There are many moments of beauty puncturing the chaos and noise.
two posts in a day, must be the end of the semester
as usual, i am trying to do everything except for study and complete the necessary end of the semester tasks.
and i only have one paper left (besides finals)! and it is almost done! and it could have been done hours ago, if i had not…
1. decided to empty my email drafts by writing the 4 somewhat lengthy emails i put off for the past month or two
2. studied stephen’s mcat physics book
3. decided to start to read t.s. eliot’s the four quartets
4. made homemade risotto for dinner
5. analyzed my choral baroque period radio station on pandora
6. prayed the hours
7. made myself 6+ cups of tea
8. realized the ridiculous, amusing, and yet somewhat sad irony of something in my life and contemplated it for a while
9. did a big load of laundry
10. mapped out a new place to go running tomorrow morning
focus focus focus!!!
one
one class left. one discharge note due. one last day at work. one week of finals.
then end of year one of graduate school.
yes, i have grossly neglected this blog, especially over the past few months. i think blogging is a seasonal thing for me. sometimes i want to write it all out, and sometimes, i can’t because i haven’t even thought about it all.
i haven’t thought about it all.
but some of it, i have. i’ve held it gently. it has strolled through my mind and heart, slowing from its usual sprint. this helped:
pei
today i do not have class. i got up early and had coffee with dorsey. it is chilly here, in the high thirties. i don’t mind because i like wearing my mittens. now i am drinking tea and listening to “stop this train” and sitting downstairs on our big comfy sofa. and thinking that it has been months since i’ve been able to do this. and that’s ok, but i’m glad today that i can.
today has some space. space to think about the many unknowns in my life right now, about guatemala, about you, about haiti, about the diaconate, about God, about my 21 family…
all shall be well, and all shall be well, and all manner of thing shall be well.
